Transforming Fear to Joy

Yesterday, rifling through some past musings, I came upon a piece I wrote in 2003.  Its “dual” theme of form and formlessness is what many attribute to be the ultimate paradox in life.  Given my blog focus over the past month, I thought it nicely represents “the pull between opposing forces” and the evolutionary convergence that follows.

To be human is to come face-to-face with myself in the reflection of all others.  In their eyes, I can easily see witch and warlock, seductress and philanderer, feminine and masculine.  At times I forget they are all me—who I see is me.  I am engulfed by the masks of illusion I project onto these people forming my world.  In my delusion, I see them as separate from me when what I want is to feel our energy as one entity.  I wonder what is still missing?

Am I still clinging to the externally visible as a means of identifying myself?  Have I merely shifted from being defined by the roles I play out on Life’s stage to being the body I wear in those performances?  Have I forgotten I am not my body and these faces who outwardly reflect my inner life are fashioned experiences cultivated for the visceral pleasure of my soul?

How do I celebrate the simple pleasures of this physical realm and retain the knowing that I am not my body?  How do I detach myself from these physical illusions so I am able to embrace them and lighten my way through this ever-evolving landscape?

It is my attachment to my body as self that swells my need for safety and security into bloated proportions.  I expend my energy fearing for my physical survival—forgetting my soul is eternal.  I must somehow learn to die to my body and reclaim my soul’s identity.  It is a fine balancing act, of being pure energy while housing this tricky physical form, that I am reaching toward.  I yearn for this integration to occur… a coming together of the pieces of myself within, between and among the elements of the universe.  Oh, to celebrate the wonder of oneness.  I feel its stir deep in my gut.

Last week’s blog, From Paradigms to Paradoxes–The CONSCIOUS Continuum, talked about the balancing act between survival and self-actualization.  That seeking of integration between two opposing pulls is evident in the recent peaceful demonstrations for democracy in Egypt and her sister nations in the Middle East.  Has our collective awareness evolved to a point where we believe unity or oneness of purpose is possible—not only within, but between, among and beyond?

Is the world collectively striving for this unity?  Have we reached a “tipping point” or critical mass to enable our unity consciousness?

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Author: Helen Maupin

Helen is passionate about transforming fear into love — from her, for her, for all. She expresses her commitment to transformation through writing poetry, self-awareness and yoga books, co-designing organizations into adaptive enterprises and deepening her daily meditation and yoga practices.


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