Upon some reflection, I feel the loss of solid ground and the shifting sands of a new beginning taking hold of me. In this case, the often lengthy and useful learning phase between endings and new beginnings was unrecognizable and accelerated. Viscerally, it felt as though I had my outer skin ripped from my body in the haste to transition to a new role. With a major focus on “doing,” my time for reflective awareness has been pieced in-between these activities.
A few months back, I wrote about surrendering to Life’s plan, that is, letting go of my desires and ambition. This is me responding in the moment to an opportunity Life has presented. It has been a whirlwind and will continue for some time, fortunately at a more reasonable pace and on a smaller scale. I am adapting (rapidly) to align myself with (rather than resist) this emerging experience. Can I see clearly where it (and I) am headed? Not a chance! However, I can see my job right now is to —
1. Show up consciously each day to what is occurring moment-to-moment.
2. Open up my heart and mind to the learning being made available to me.
3. See the truth about myself in the ongoing experiences confronting me.
4. Accept what is even if it is not what I would have planned for myself.
My intuition tells me that the next year will be a time of balancing surviving with thriving. I feel confident that these next 12 months will unfold solutions, which I can apply to resolve any imbalance between feeding the belly and feeding the soul. So, once more down the rabbit hole I go into a new world. As always, I will keep you posted as to my whereabouts.
The poem below is my point of departure.
Today, like a grand elm, I branch out.
After much reaching inward to expand
and know myself, I now reach outward
to touch others and know Life.
Where these new branches lead
is both mystery and curiosity.
Tho’ I cannot see the future;
today, if I stay awake and watchful,
shows itself in ordinary ways.
From my roots in solid ground, I see
the brightness of adventure. And,
what I know to be true is, always,
a light shines upon my path.
It guides me to discovery. Invites me
to unveil my truth, throw my arms
fearlessly wide and open my heart.
It protects me, and I am safe.
10 January 2012
When did you last “fall down a rabbit hole” and find yourself living in a completely different experience? How can you begin to —
1. Show up consciously each day to what is occurring moment-to-moment?
2. Open up your heart and mind to the learning being made available to you?
3. See the truth about yourself in the ongoing experiences confronting you?
4. Accept what is even if it is not what you would have planned for yourself?